Looking through the Window...
i seem to only blog abt things tat bother me, and i apologise for tat. of course, i do wanna blog abt happy stuff but nothing seems joyous enuff.
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well, e can is leaking again. been thinking, wat do i actually miss? e person or what we shared? at 1st, all was good as i had it set tat i dont miss e person but its just e feeling of being wanted or needed. having someone to shower ones love on. but a little while back, it hit me. it was e person who made me open my heart again. a spark giving me e courage to go again. so is it e person which i truely miss as e person was e cuz of all e happiness? if it aint, and if it is e feeling, why do i prefer e previous more than e last? man.. could go for a smoke right now, but i shan't. urghhh.. having e feeling of wanting to tell someone u miss em so bad, but u cant. it'll only make things weird between e 2 of u. as if things arent alr weird. u receive a sms, u reply, but u rarely get a response, even if u ask a question. but im rather used to tat by now. somehow, it gets me happy and sad at e same time. nv knew e 2 emotions could occur at e same time. knowing tat ure not forgotten, happy. but not getting a response, ouch.
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FUCK~
so many emotions can be put into tat little word. joy, anger, sorrow, pleasure etc...
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im a man of my words. unless i forget of course, or it becomes really impossible to do. but when i say i'd love u forever, i fucking will. there're certain words tat i cannot say unless i really mean. one of em's "love" & e other's "sorry". i alr find it hard to lie! if u dont believe, then u dont know me. odd i am.
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WARNING: weird section inc!
ever wanted a puppy, then getting to hold it for e 1st time at e pet shop? then e shopkeeper takes it back cuz u cant afford it. im in tat similar situation. just looking through e window of e pet store at e puppy i will never likely hold again.
end of weird section
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so screwed for gym later. shit. gonna try to wake in 4 hours time. sure cui. hope i dont wake too late. got errands to run tml (hopefully after gym).
MUST GO GYM!!!
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well, e can is leaking again. been thinking, wat do i actually miss? e person or what we shared? at 1st, all was good as i had it set tat i dont miss e person but its just e feeling of being wanted or needed. having someone to shower ones love on. but a little while back, it hit me. it was e person who made me open my heart again. a spark giving me e courage to go again. so is it e person which i truely miss as e person was e cuz of all e happiness? if it aint, and if it is e feeling, why do i prefer e previous more than e last? man.. could go for a smoke right now, but i shan't. urghhh.. having e feeling of wanting to tell someone u miss em so bad, but u cant. it'll only make things weird between e 2 of u. as if things arent alr weird. u receive a sms, u reply, but u rarely get a response, even if u ask a question. but im rather used to tat by now. somehow, it gets me happy and sad at e same time. nv knew e 2 emotions could occur at e same time. knowing tat ure not forgotten, happy. but not getting a response, ouch.
--
FUCK~
so many emotions can be put into tat little word. joy, anger, sorrow, pleasure etc...
--
im a man of my words. unless i forget of course, or it becomes really impossible to do. but when i say i'd love u forever, i fucking will. there're certain words tat i cannot say unless i really mean. one of em's "love" & e other's "sorry". i alr find it hard to lie! if u dont believe, then u dont know me. odd i am.
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WARNING: weird section inc!
ever wanted a puppy, then getting to hold it for e 1st time at e pet shop? then e shopkeeper takes it back cuz u cant afford it. im in tat similar situation. just looking through e window of e pet store at e puppy i will never likely hold again.
end of weird section
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so screwed for gym later. shit. gonna try to wake in 4 hours time. sure cui. hope i dont wake too late. got errands to run tml (hopefully after gym).
MUST GO GYM!!!
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5:57 AM
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